My name is Emelie Fridell Saunders. Today second of January 2023 is my 24th birthday. I never thought I would become this old, people say 24 is not an high age but for me it’s a lifetime.

I was a pretty normal kid I guess very calm and to nice almost for my own good. I never experienced much to anyone how I really felt the easiest way was to put on my “happy face” the mask that no one can see through. Every worry and problem I did put I my little box of worries and close fast. 12th of march 2012 when I was 13 years old, I put in one more worry and my box broke all the problems came up at ones, didn’t know what to do. So many feelings at ones, the pain…! So that day I decided to say goodbye to earth. No one knew I wasn’t feeling okey. I’m a good pretender. My mum found me seconds of not being able to help me comeback. There it all started hospital, medicine, new doctors every week and know one knew what to do all I wanted was to feel pain somewhere else then in my heart. So no one really wanted take me on as a patient because no one expected me to survive my own head. Only one my mum!
Her motto was: If you don’t want to keep going I will lift you until you want again. She quit her job to take care of me 24/7, 5 years it was a total mess. She was with me every second of the day. Somehow we did it together!

Today I’m married and have 2 furry babies (dogs).
I never thought I would ever say that. It seems like nothing is better when you are in the big deep hole!
But it will become better, that what everyone that struggles need to know. You are NOT alone!

That is why I love this organisation, means so much! So let’s raise so money so more people can see the day in colour again!